Confused???

Sometimes I wonder what I do to certain people that make them mad or even seem to be jealous of me. All I do is just live my life, and try to be happy. It just seems that there is always one individual that is for some reason or another, either upset with me or jealous of me. It's seems to be always about the same subject too. I feel that because I am bettering myself, this person seems to distance themselves from me. I can't say that I am sorry for bettering myself, but sometimes this person makes me feel guilty for being a better person. I really don't know how to approach this to this individual without make them angry. I guess only time will tell and all I can do is watch out for me and what makes myself and my family happy!

Pure Romance

I just signed up to be a consultant for Pure Romance. Should be fun! I am only going to do internet sales for now,but maybe later on down the road I will get out there and do some parties! Who knows?! I am excited to start this and see where it takes me. Kind of a fun way to make a couple extra bucks a month! Anyway, you can find me at: jamieeva.pureromance.com

Be sure to come check it out!

Down "50" Pounds!

I am so excited to be down "50" pounds!! It has taken me since about the middle of August to reach this mark. I am still working on the next 73 pounds, but I know with persistence and the encouragement of my family and friends....I will most definately persavier!!! This has been an amazing journey and one that I am glad to finally be on! I feel that being overweight all of these years that I have lost alot of "good' years. I can't take back all the years of sitting on the couch and not playing with my kids the way that they deserved to have their mom interact and play with them. But ~ I can make up for all those years now. I am so excited to be that mom again! My kids "deserve" to have that mom back and I am soooo excited to be that mom for them! Also~I am excited to be the wife that I want to be and once was! I am more comfortable to give myself and not hold back anymore. I have learned through this journey, that I have held myself back for years in "every" aspect of my life. Well~NO MORE!! I am going to start enjoying my life and living like there is no tomorrow! I am thrilled to be the wife and mom that I once was!! Life is a beautiful journey and I will not take advantage of it anymore! God has blessed me!

You've got to follow your passion. You've got to figure out what it is you love--who you really are. And have the courage to do that. I believe that the only courage anybody ever needs is the courage to follow your own dreams.

Our Deepest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Love

LOVE: We think about it, Sing about it, Dream about it and lose sleep worrying about it. When we don't know we have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear losing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain. But we don't know which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define and IMPOSSIBLE to live without.

What Is Love

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. We have roots that grow towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossoms have fallen from our branches we find that we are one tree and not two."

Weight Watchers

I always post on facebook what I make for dinner when it is a Weight Watchers Recipe. I get so many of my friends that want the recipes that I think I am going to start Putting them on my Blog. Most of them are amazingly yummy and I would love to share them. I know that you can probably get them at the Weight Watchers sight, but if this would be easier for my friends~I will do it this way! So be sure to watch for the recipes...I will definately post them as I make them and let you know how they are! :o)

I Am A Christian.....

When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not shouting 'I'm clean livin''. I'm whispering 'I was lost, Now I'm found and forgiven.' When I say... 'I am a Christian' I don't speak of this with pride. I'm confessing that I stumble and need Christ to be my guide. When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not trying to be strong. I'm professing that I'm weak and need His strength to carry on. When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not bragging of success. I'm admitting I have failed and need God to clean my mess. When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not claiming to be perfect. My flaws are far too visible but, God believes I am worth it. When I say... 'I am a Christian' I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches, so I call upon His name. When I say... 'I am a Christian' I'm not holier than thou. I'm just a simple sinner Who received God's good grace, somehow!

Madison's Haircut

So a week or so before Christmas, I had mentioned to Madison that I wanted to giver her a haircut. It was a little below the middle of her back. I told her that I would like to cut it to about her shoulder blades and asked her what she thought about that. She was really excited for me to cut it! :o) So right after Christmas, John and I wanted to go to the movies and we took her to John's moms and sisters place while we went. When we went to pick her up, both his mom and sister "told" me not to cut her hair! I said that she wanted me to cut it and was escited for me to do so. John's sister said that Maddie was to scared to tell me that she didn't want it cut. BS! LOL! Now, you see, this has been an ongoing conversation since I was in labor at the hospital. Both grandma and auntie told me that I am not to ever cut her hair and that she is to have "long" hair. I'm sorry, but when did this baby "not" become mine?? So anyway, I sat on this for a few days, and then asked Maddie again if she would like me to cut her hair.....the response: YES! HA! So we did! I cut her hair and she LOVES it! And I have to say, it totally makes her look like a little lady! I cut her hair not only because she wanted me to, but also out of spite! Needless to say, grandma and auntie weren't all that thrilled but did say it looked cute. :o)

She was sooo excited! :o)

Little Moments

My kids~I think it is something wonderful when you look over at them and they are just playing and enjoying eachothers company. It seems like a rare moment when they do this with out arguing or fighting about whatever. It is those priceless moments that make you smile. (and think to yourself, WOW~they really do like eachother!) LOL! I love my children more than anything in this world! They are beautiful inside and out!

My Weight Loss Journey...

So I started Weight Watchers on September 4, 2009. I committed to finally do something for myself to make myself healthier and in general, a happier person. I have done far better with this than I ever imagined! I knew I would succeed at losing the weight, but wasn't sure if I would "stay" in the right frame of mind to keep on track. I guess I keep surprising myself! As of today I have lost a total of 47 pounds!! I am so proud of myself for doing this! I still have a ways to go. I would like to lose a total of 123 pounds. I know that with the help of weight watchers and the encouragement from my family and friends I can achieve this! I have had a loss every week since I started, and am so excited about that! Yes, there have been a few weeks here and there that I really wanted a piece of chocolate cake, but I am learning to make better choices, and have NOT had that peice of cake! LOL! When I started this journey, I was a miserable, fat person. I hated the way I looked! It amazes me how weight can affect you, as a person. I was grumpy alot, not very friendly, didn't want to do anything, I was boring. All that is changing. I am more friendly, out going, and more confident for sure! I want to wear clothes that are more form fitting instead of wearing bagy hoodies and stretchy pants. I gave away ALL of my stretchy pants, most of my hoodies, and in all......I have gotten rid of 4 HUGE black garbage bags full of clothes that are "too big"!!

Life is definately better for me as a person. I love who I am and I love who I am becoming. It's like I am finding a brand new person inside me that I forgot was there! I want to be an active parent, a loving wife and a devoted friend. By next winter I want to teach my kids how to snow ski! I have not been in ski's since I was 18 and I think it's time to pull them out again and let my kids experience the joy of going down those slopes!

I'm not gonna waite around anymore for life. I am going to grab life and go with it! I want this so bad, that nothing is going to stop me from achieving my goal. I want this with all that I am.......

All in all, I am so happy with life right now! I am doing what "I" need to do to make my life better and me better!!

To be the daughter in law.....

I am having an extremely hard time dealing with the fact that my mother-in-law does not like me. I have been competing, in a matter of words, with my husbands ex wife Gayla for 10 years now. Why I even have to compete is beyond me! I shouldn't have to, but I do! My mother-in-law, Gail, refers to Gayla as a daughter, and Gayla's family as her family. She goes to the extent of calling Gayla's children, with whom are NOT my husbands kids, her grand "babies". One year Gayla sent Gail a family picture and had the nerve and disrespect to put that picture up on top of the entertainment center in there living room! Now you might ask, "where was our family picture", meaning John's and mine.....Well, NO WHERE to be seen!! I feel like she just "puts up" with me because I am married to John. John has brought this up to her and she defends Gayla to the end of time! She even went to the extent of deleting John, her SON, and myself off of her Facebook page, but kept GAYLA as her friend!! John's ex wife has more importance to his mother than even him, her SON! I truly don't know how to deal with this any more. You would think that after 10 years of John and I being together that she would realize....I'M STAYING!! She would LOVE for nothing more than to see John and I divorce and for him and Gayla to be together. Apparently she doesn't realize all the HELL that Gayla put her son through or she just doesn't give a damn! I don't know! I could go on and on about this because there is soooo much more to talk about, but I guess in a nut shell...I will never be truly accepted by her and to be recognized as John's wife.

The Love of My Life

I wonder all the time where I would be if it wasn't for my amazing husband. He has brought so much joy and color into my life. We have an absolutely beautiful family that mean the world to me. I don't think my husband will ever know just how much I adore him and how much I appreciate all that he does for us. He has taken care of me and our two kiddos since the very beginning with his limitless capabilities and the strength that even he doesn't know he has! He has blessed our lives in so many ways. I thank God everyday that he put John in my life. Without him, I am not complete.

New to Blogging....

Ok....so this is the first BLOG I have done. My dear friend Shannon created one and I thought~ Hey.....that might be kinda fun!! :0) So, here I am! Now to find fun and interesting things to talk about...hmmmmm......